i thought i kicked the habit.

i know i did.

then why?

cheap thrills and temporary highs can't fix anything i know that.

then why?

i am/was pissed.

i am so bloody pissed i tell you. i'm beyond pissed. i have not been this pissed in a very, very, VERY long time. it surprised me, cause i CAN keep myself simmered down. this was entirely a different thing. it also ruined my bike ride. and i absolutely love my bike rides. i was so pissed that i craved for some stuff so badly.

well, all i can say. two bloody years down the drain. more than that in fact.

why? cause i was bloody stood up. not only that, that bloody person switched off her handphone, after getting cut off. SO, I AM PISSED.

i was out, somewhere far from my house, and that persons couldn't have the smallest decency to at least speak to me properly.

WHAT THE FUCKING HELL.

now i regret.

i craved, and caved.

i can't believe this could actually happen to me again.

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my heart beats faster.

there's a burn at the back of my throat.

i start to shake.

my brain seems to be liquid.

i can't type properly.

sweet tasting lips.

i'm high.

blow by blow, i'm losing complete control over my life.